FOR MY FRIEND RAB - I KNOW I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN

Lately I have had Becky on my mind, I am not sure, but I truly I believe I have felt her presence. I love this video and probably watched it 100 times this weekend just reminding myself that I know in my heart I will see her again. We had plans with our girls, they were going to play sports together and shop together and we would see movies together. When she passed away, I was devistated! Ana had been with her that day and the girls were supposed to travel to Flagstaff with her. They didn't want to go and she left them home with Bryce. I just cannot imagine what would have happened to those little girls when that accident happened. However I do know that they were spared for great things and I am so proud of them both. Moving away from Brylnee was hard, we latched onto each other and I love her so much. I sure did love her mom too and miss her alot! We fought so hard in Jr. High and High School because we were both way competitive but it also made us a great team. She coached Kyli to a Softball State Championship and Kyli and I were the first mother/daughter to have State Softball Trophies at the High School! 

RAB - Tattooed in ink on my foot with a dragonfly. Always a reminder of her. I love you and miss you like crazy.

See You Again

Wiz Khalifa

It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
When I see you again

Damn, who knew?
All the planes we flew, good things we've been through
That I'll be standing right here
Talking to you 'bout another path
I know we loved to hit the road and laugh
But something told me that it wouldn't last
Had to switch up, look at things different, see the bigger picture
Those were the days, hard work forever pays
Now I see you in a better place (see you in a better place)
Uh

How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got?
Everything I went through, you were standing there by my side
And now you gon' be with me for the last ride

It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again (I'll see you again)
We've come a long way (yeah, we came a long way) from where we began
(You know what we started)
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again (I'll tell you)
When I see you again

Aah oh, aah oh
Ooh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
(Yeah)

First, you both go out your way and the vibe is feeling strong
And what's small turn to a friendship, a friendship turn to a bond
And that bond will never be broken, the love will never get lost (the love will never get lost)
And when brotherhood come first, then the line will never be crossed
Established it on our own when that line had to be drawn
And that line is what we reach
So remember me when I'm gone (remember me when I'm gone)

How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got?
Everything I went through you were standing there by my side
And now you gon' be with me for the last ride

So let the light guide your way, yeah
Hold every memory as you go
And every road you take
Will always lead you home, home

It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
When I see you again

Aah oh, aah oh (uh)
(Yeah)
Ooh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh (yeah)
When I see you again (yeah, uh)
See you again (yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh (uh huh)
When I see you again (yup)

Friday Night Lights

 In the midst of this pandemic, where schools here in NV are not open yet, and fall sports cancelled, this song makes me sad. Sad for our kids that have lost our on so much this year. Sad for the Seniors that lost their year when this started and sad for the current ones. Ana was planning on playing football. She got to attend a week of practice before we were told our superintendent pulled fall sports. It was heartbreaking. I know there is a lesson here, but dang it I am mad!!

I am so blessed to have grown up in a small town where Friday night football was big. So many memories of games and playing in the band. I loved watching football and supporting our team. So here ya go, Friday Night Lights in a tailgate town!! Missing my hometown right now...<3

Parts of Me - Reflection Page 35

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NOTE: I did not write the following, it is from a book entitled "Parts of Me" by Kimberley Z. Tent. However, I feel very connected to this Kimberley was a Canadian Royal Mountie and our careers seem to have been very similar. Her poetry spoke to me, however this one is pretty deep. 

 REFLECTION: I remember when, fire ripped through my chest, when there were no limits to my dreams. When, the wind tousled my hair, and when there was no measuring my miles. I remember when, the ocean invited me in, and when there was no holding me back, when the mirror smiled back at me and when there was no hatred or fear. I remember the first time I lost my way, and when there was a cocoon left behind. But through it all, I remember most, the day when my own reflection mattered. <3

Parts of Me - Mirror Mirror Page 33

NOTE: I did not write the following, it is from a book entitled "Parts of Me" by Kimberley Z. Tent. However, I feel very connected to this Kimberley was a Canadian Royal Mountie and our careers seem to have been very similar. Her poetry spoke to me, however this one is pretty deep.

Mirror, Mirror

Is this really born flesh staring back at me?

With darkened eyes and once glowing cheeks, mocking me in a paltry shade of goodbye?

Why does it cover aged, trembling palms, forcing me to remember a grim script of tightened wire, darkness and shame?

I've lost precious pieces of moments passed on, a beautiful canvas gone black over time, with covered limbs and memory fogged.

What does life mean, if it's partially gone, when jagged scraps are hidden under clay, of dragons, turmoil and childish desire.

Beware the sting of promises not kept, of scarlet tunic treachery and secrets held above steep ladders of false face, shadows of timeless abandonment, chained to the gut of a charcoal box, now rusted and floating south on a nameless river.

Will I ever recognize the image staring back at me? The one dreaming of a better place 'round the bend, and searching for truth in one single day?

Can unconditional love of self truly survive shared air within a society unjust, or do we surrender ourselves to daily checks - In bloodstained mirrors?

Broken 

When I look into the sky

See the sunshines ray of light, won't stay

When freedom wasn't hard to find, erased

I have no purpose here I see

What people say they make of me, I know

I used to be important here, but now i live in shame and fear

All day

CHORUS:

I just can't catch a break, no

I try so hard, oh

But the pains too great

The thoughts of self destruction fill my head

But I remember what he said

I am a WARRIOR through and through

No matter what, my heart bleeds BLUE, all day

I feel so trapped inside myself

The feelings that involve myself, are harsh

Why stick around here I'm not free

No one even tries to see, my side

The clouds of black are filled with pain

I've worked so hard to fix my name, again

All I want for you to do

I stand up along the way for me, oh for me

CHORUS:

I just can't catch a break, no

I try so hard, oh

But the pains too great

The thoughts of self destruction fill my head

But I remember what he said

I am a WARRIOR through and through

No matter what, my heart bleeds BLUE, all day

THE MESSAGE

THE MESSAGE

What is the message here,

as I try to understand

One thing I know for certain,

is it's all part of God's Plan.

I see the chaos all around me,

people living scared and in fear

But if everyone would just "slow down",

we could hear the message loud and clear.

It's a tale, for told by the Master himself, 

that if he disappears from this world, we will know

It's all there in the plan he has laid out

Right now, we're seeing "The Show".

It doesn't have to be scary, fearful or gloomy

we just need to slow down and listen and breathe

It's time to remember those feelings of LOVE

and rid the selfishness, hoarding and GREED.

When a tear falls, for those that have suffered,

when you bow your head to pray

PRAY for your brother, your neighbor, your country

PRAY that this divide with our brothers will all go away.

Reach out to those you may not agree with

Reach out to those that need an extra hand

Mend those relationships that have gone astray

Let's bring LOVE and HOPE back to this land.

There's a message, do you hear it?

Slow down, breathe, pray and LOVE

and when your heart beats fast and you're feeling scared

Fall to your knees, and look up above.

HE'S THERE! He always has been,

we've forgotten with our "worldly ways"

There's a message, do you see it?

Include him, listen and obey.

KT 3/21/2020

Beautiful

“As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same” ☀️
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How many of you hold back from being your true self because you fear judgment? 🙋🏼‍♀️ I was once there. It’s not a fun place to be. People can be cruel, bitter, and down right nasty. Which makes it very difficult to want to come out of your shell🐢
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“Our deepest fear is not that we’re inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?! You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.”
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YOU are an amazing and beautiful human. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Don’t let social media, opinions of family, friends, ANYONE, hold you back from letting your light shine 💜💜