Parts of Me - Reflection Page 35

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NOTE: I did not write the following, it is from a book entitled "Parts of Me" by Kimberley Z. Tent. However, I feel very connected to this Kimberley was a Canadian Royal Mountie and our careers seem to have been very similar. Her poetry spoke to me, however this one is pretty deep. 

 REFLECTION: I remember when, fire ripped through my chest, when there were no limits to my dreams. When, the wind tousled my hair, and when there was no measuring my miles. I remember when, the ocean invited me in, and when there was no holding me back, when the mirror smiled back at me and when there was no hatred or fear. I remember the first time I lost my way, and when there was a cocoon left behind. But through it all, I remember most, the day when my own reflection mattered. <3

Parts of Me - Mirror Mirror Page 33

NOTE: I did not write the following, it is from a book entitled "Parts of Me" by Kimberley Z. Tent. However, I feel very connected to this Kimberley was a Canadian Royal Mountie and our careers seem to have been very similar. Her poetry spoke to me, however this one is pretty deep.

Mirror, Mirror

Is this really born flesh staring back at me?

With darkened eyes and once glowing cheeks, mocking me in a paltry shade of goodbye?

Why does it cover aged, trembling palms, forcing me to remember a grim script of tightened wire, darkness and shame?

I've lost precious pieces of moments passed on, a beautiful canvas gone black over time, with covered limbs and memory fogged.

What does life mean, if it's partially gone, when jagged scraps are hidden under clay, of dragons, turmoil and childish desire.

Beware the sting of promises not kept, of scarlet tunic treachery and secrets held above steep ladders of false face, shadows of timeless abandonment, chained to the gut of a charcoal box, now rusted and floating south on a nameless river.

Will I ever recognize the image staring back at me? The one dreaming of a better place 'round the bend, and searching for truth in one single day?

Can unconditional love of self truly survive shared air within a society unjust, or do we surrender ourselves to daily checks - In bloodstained mirrors?

Broken 

When I look into the sky

See the sunshines ray of light, won't stay

When freedom wasn't hard to find, erased

I have no purpose here I see

What people say they make of me, I know

I used to be important here, but now i live in shame and fear

All day

CHORUS:

I just can't catch a break, no

I try so hard, oh

But the pains too great

The thoughts of self destruction fill my head

But I remember what he said

I am a WARRIOR through and through

No matter what, my heart bleeds BLUE, all day

I feel so trapped inside myself

The feelings that involve myself, are harsh

Why stick around here I'm not free

No one even tries to see, my side

The clouds of black are filled with pain

I've worked so hard to fix my name, again

All I want for you to do

I stand up along the way for me, oh for me

CHORUS:

I just can't catch a break, no

I try so hard, oh

But the pains too great

The thoughts of self destruction fill my head

But I remember what he said

I am a WARRIOR through and through

No matter what, my heart bleeds BLUE, all day

THE MESSAGE

THE MESSAGE

What is the message here,

as I try to understand

One thing I know for certain,

is it's all part of God's Plan.

I see the chaos all around me,

people living scared and in fear

But if everyone would just "slow down",

we could hear the message loud and clear.

It's a tale, for told by the Master himself, 

that if he disappears from this world, we will know

It's all there in the plan he has laid out

Right now, we're seeing "The Show".

It doesn't have to be scary, fearful or gloomy

we just need to slow down and listen and breathe

It's time to remember those feelings of LOVE

and rid the selfishness, hoarding and GREED.

When a tear falls, for those that have suffered,

when you bow your head to pray

PRAY for your brother, your neighbor, your country

PRAY that this divide with our brothers will all go away.

Reach out to those you may not agree with

Reach out to those that need an extra hand

Mend those relationships that have gone astray

Let's bring LOVE and HOPE back to this land.

There's a message, do you hear it?

Slow down, breathe, pray and LOVE

and when your heart beats fast and you're feeling scared

Fall to your knees, and look up above.

HE'S THERE! He always has been,

we've forgotten with our "worldly ways"

There's a message, do you see it?

Include him, listen and obey.

KT 3/21/2020

Beautiful

“As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same” ☀️
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How many of you hold back from being your true self because you fear judgment? 🙋🏼‍♀️ I was once there. It’s not a fun place to be. People can be cruel, bitter, and down right nasty. Which makes it very difficult to want to come out of your shell🐢
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“Our deepest fear is not that we’re inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?! You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.”
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YOU are an amazing and beautiful human. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Don’t let social media, opinions of family, friends, ANYONE, hold you back from letting your light shine 💜💜

ARIZONA SUN

ARIZONA SUN

As I look out yonder at that Arizona sun

A time of happiness flashes back in my mind

Camping, fishing, swimming and CAMP

With some of the best cousins you'll find

I grew up in the pines, a smell I will never forget

The wind blowing through those majestic trees

A time spent with grandparents, family and friends

Some of the most beautiful of Gods Country you will ever see

I was taught by them to respect the land

To only take whatever you need

The memories made in that beautiful place

Makes that land more special to me

When grandma took us down to Willow Creek

Where the water was so fresh and clear

Or when we loaded up the truck for a picnic

And we would see a large group of deer

The sound of the screen door slamming

When Granddad walked through the door

I swear every time he kissed my grandma

She fell in love with him even more

The smells that came through that kitchen

Our bellies never empty or wanting more

She would feed everyone that walked in that house

You never left hungry when you walked out that door

That big ole bath tub with the four claw feet

I loved when it was time to get in and play

We got a good scrub down from our head to our toes

The remnants washed off from another fun day

The Juicy Fruit gum and cinnamon discs always in the cupboard

Or in the pocket of granddads shirt

There was always a sweet treat to be found

When granddad walked in that's what we wanted first

The large back bedroom where we all slept

The stories told, the monsters under the bed

The peaceful feeling of LOVE and HOME

Was something we all shared

Whether you were born first or last, we were all treated the same

The most loving grandparents, sweet and fun

The feeling of HOME every time I go back

To that gorgeous ARIZONA SUN





kt 08/28/19

One Day

 

 

I am still trying to figure out who I am and what direction I am meant to go.

This says it all.

Enough Said.