Broken 

When I look into the sky

See the sunshines ray of light, won't stay

When freedom wasn't hard to find, erased

I have no purpose here I see

What people say they make of me, I know

I used to be important here, but now i live in shame and fear

All day

CHORUS:

I just can't catch a break, no

I try so hard, oh

But the pains too great

The thoughts of self destruction fill my head

But I remember what he said

I am a WARRIOR through and through

No matter what, my heart bleeds BLUE, all day

I feel so trapped inside myself

The feelings that involve myself, are harsh

Why stick around here I'm not free

No one even tries to see, my side

The clouds of black are filled with pain

I've worked so hard to fix my name, again

All I want for you to do

I stand up along the way for me, oh for me

CHORUS:

I just can't catch a break, no

I try so hard, oh

But the pains too great

The thoughts of self destruction fill my head

But I remember what he said

I am a WARRIOR through and through

No matter what, my heart bleeds BLUE, all day

THE MESSAGE

THE MESSAGE

What is the message here,

as I try to understand

One thing I know for certain,

is it's all part of God's Plan.

I see the chaos all around me,

people living scared and in fear

But if everyone would just "slow down",

we could hear the message loud and clear.

It's a tale, for told by the Master himself, 

that if he disappears from this world, we will know

It's all there in the plan he has laid out

Right now, we're seeing "The Show".

It doesn't have to be scary, fearful or gloomy

we just need to slow down and listen and breathe

It's time to remember those feelings of LOVE

and rid the selfishness, hoarding and GREED.

When a tear falls, for those that have suffered,

when you bow your head to pray

PRAY for your brother, your neighbor, your country

PRAY that this divide with our brothers will all go away.

Reach out to those you may not agree with

Reach out to those that need an extra hand

Mend those relationships that have gone astray

Let's bring LOVE and HOPE back to this land.

There's a message, do you hear it?

Slow down, breathe, pray and LOVE

and when your heart beats fast and you're feeling scared

Fall to your knees, and look up above.

HE'S THERE! He always has been,

we've forgotten with our "worldly ways"

There's a message, do you see it?

Include him, listen and obey.

KT 3/21/2020

Beautiful

“As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same” ☀️
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How many of you hold back from being your true self because you fear judgment? 🙋🏼‍♀️ I was once there. It’s not a fun place to be. People can be cruel, bitter, and down right nasty. Which makes it very difficult to want to come out of your shell🐢
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“Our deepest fear is not that we’re inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?! You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.”
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YOU are an amazing and beautiful human. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Don’t let social media, opinions of family, friends, ANYONE, hold you back from letting your light shine 💜💜

ARIZONA SUN

ARIZONA SUN

As I look out yonder at that Arizona sun

A time of happiness flashes back in my mind

Camping, fishing, swimming and CAMP

With some of the best cousins you'll find

I grew up in the pines, a smell I will never forget

The wind blowing through those majestic trees

A time spent with grandparents, family and friends

Some of the most beautiful of Gods Country you will ever see

I was taught by them to respect the land

To only take whatever you need

The memories made in that beautiful place

Makes that land more special to me

When grandma took us down to Willow Creek

Where the water was so fresh and clear

Or when we loaded up the truck for a picnic

And we would see a large group of deer

The sound of the screen door slamming

When Granddad walked through the door

I swear every time he kissed my grandma

She fell in love with him even more

The smells that came through that kitchen

Our bellies never empty or wanting more

She would feed everyone that walked in that house

You never left hungry when you walked out that door

That big ole bath tub with the four claw feet

I loved when it was time to get in and play

We got a good scrub down from our head to our toes

The remnants washed off from another fun day

The Juicy Fruit gum and cinnamon discs always in the cupboard

Or in the pocket of granddads shirt

There was always a sweet treat to be found

When granddad walked in that's what we wanted first

The large back bedroom where we all slept

The stories told, the monsters under the bed

The peaceful feeling of LOVE and HOME

Was something we all shared

Whether you were born first or last, we were all treated the same

The most loving grandparents, sweet and fun

The feeling of HOME every time I go back

To that gorgeous ARIZONA SUN





kt 08/28/19

One Day

 

 

I am still trying to figure out who I am and what direction I am meant to go.

This says it all.

Enough Said.

I Fear Myself

 

 

Sitting here in this moment of quiet and calm

The sun shining down on my face

Thinking of the beauty all around me

Wishing I was not "in this place"

 

My mind full of chaos and fear

The memories continuing to flow

My head racing along with my heart

I just long for a moment of slow

 

I keep telling myself that "I am OK"

A smile on my face wherever I go

Wishing it was real and not so hard

To take this pain and just let it flow

My courage and shine were taken that day

My pride and direction went too

My dreams full of anger, fear and hate

My ruby red heart now bleeds blue

 

Fearing those days when I feel myself slip

Not trusting what my mind will do

It goes to the darkest places

Telling me its time to be through

 

I FEAR MYSELF





A PROMISE FROM FOREVER

These pics were taken last month. I am absolutely in love with the way the pics turned out and this guy right here. I cannot even begin to express the love that I have for him and the love and support he has given me the last 14 years. However the last year in particular. I know that we don't always see eye to eye and he seriously drives me absolutely crazy with his laid back attitude. I love it that as I listened to some conference talks this morning there was a talk by Elder Matthew L. Carpenter titled "Wilt Thou Be Made Whole" (Oct 2018)
In this talk he talked about our bodies being completely healed in the Resurrection. I know this man of mine will be so happy to have his leg back. We have talked several times that if this accident he was involved in had not happened, then our paths may have never crossed. He was involved in some trouble before he got his life together and went on a mission. Several of his friends and family were in gangs and did something terrible. Most ended up getting deported. He could have been a part of that. When he lost his leg at a young age the Shriner's sponsored him to come to the states and they took care of him and his needs until he was 18. Had that not of happened he may of never had the opportunity to come to the states. It's just a whole list of "what if's" and I know in my heart that in order for Heavenly Father to bring us together, part of Lipe's path was to lose that leg.
i am truly thankful for being blessed with a man that is true to his priesthood and can lay hands on his families head when we are in need of a priesthood blessing. I am thankful for his love and support. He is a great dad and I love watching him watch Ana grow and develop into the amazing young woman that she is. I see the "awe" in his eyes as he realizes what an amazing gift we received.
I know that this journey that we are on as an eternal couple has bumps in the road. There are times that we argue about going left or right on this path in front of us. There have been flat tires and detours and some engine trouble, but as long as we continue to do our best to stay on the path then I know it will all be worth it in the end.
"I will choose to find Joy in the Journey that God has set before me" <3 p="">